People who don't get my message.

So, I had a chance to talk to LDS missionaries, one is Japanese.
I listened to them and was very respectful about their belief.
I told them about my belief which is I believe millions... billions gods and re-carnation.
They gave me an assignment to read the book of Mormon. .... which i didn't lol
Well my excuse is it's hard to read in EVEN JAPANESE.
I had no idea the name of person or place.
So I was very honest to tell them I could not understand.

They gave me a Japanese written one and started explaining about praying.

Pray is for communicating the God (father) so you have to do everyday or every so often.
I told them I pray only once a year ... more like wish.
This is not insulting my gods but my gods are generous enough to simplify and reduce number of pray.
I am not crazy about my religion "Shinto" but this is what Shinto's churchgoer said on TV.
As long as you believe them, I will be protected by gods.
I just like the way Shinto is. Shinto also integrate with Buddhism.
That's why I tried to understand LDS.


However, they didn't get the concept at all...


They told me to pray at the end of meeting.
I politely refused because I feel like I am insulting the religion if I pray without believing it.
(I never put my right hand on my chest during American national anthem, just because I respect their patriot mind but I am not the one so I just stand up and stay still)

Yet they wanted me to pray, I kept refusing and told them if I start believe it I will.
Also I told them I will join if they come again to talk to my roommates and IF I WANT TO.

This Sunday, they came again and my roommate told me I should talk to them but I was very tired and didn't wanna do anything. So I refused it but she tried so hard to make me listen to them.

I believe the religion is something you learn with willingness to know more not forcing.
I would love to learn other regions but when I want to.

I like the way I believe right now and not necessary to change it.
I am happy so I just want them to leave me alone.

Now they discourage me to learn something new.
I don't hate them but they need to change how to convert or teach stuff they believe.


That was maybe last lesson in Utah.
I am very excited to go out of here and start new life.