What makes cheating??

The other day, I just talk to my friend in Japan. She told me she has cheated on her bf and really regret. They are still together and she decided not to tell him until she dies (the secret will take to her grave). I used to strict about cheating. I considered as cheat if my bf goes out with a girl, holding hands, kiss, of course sex, and flirting. But I just noticed my view of cheating changed a lot!!!

I would say, going out with a girl friend is okay. I would rather know who it will be but I don't think it's cheating at all. Holding hands.... I think that is kinda cheating because I can't think any reason to hold my male friends' hands... Kissing on the cheek is totally fine but not on the lips, and of course sex is cheating. Flirting is very difficult to say, if he clears he has a gf, I would think it's ok to flirt.

hmmm, people can change a lot in 6yrs.
But if I decide to cheat, I won't be able to keep a secret so had to break up, and I don't wanna do this so I will never cheat.

I don't know how my friend can keep in a secret. I can't say if it's good for her bf or not.


Also, if I was her bf, do I wanna know the fact my gf cheated on me??
yea, I need to know that. lies always piled up and ends up the worst problem.

I would say that I have never been cheated on. but who knows lol
But I have no way to figure out which makes me happy.


It would broke my heart f*cking hard if somebody cheated on me!!!

I haven't had to worry about it so far. which is very good :)

Face to Reality

I had a clinical at imaging of angiography. It was basically you put tube into the body with looking at x-ray.
It was very impressive how the doctor did easily and fast.


There was a patient with liver failure. He is very skinny but tummy.
I don't know if you have ever seen the pic of starving children in Africa.
He was just like that.

The doctor put tube and connect to 1000ml bottle and he filled the 2300ml (1.5bottle)
Basically he cannot handle all fluid in liver and leak to third space.
I couldn't believe how much human can hold water in the place which is not supposed to.



There is another patient who fell the tree in childhood and was coma for a month
As a result, he has mental retardation. Also schizophrenia, depression and tumor in testicles.
His testicle is bigger than two soft ball,,, maybe half of basketball.
He got CT scan and biopsy. But it scared him and he ended up urinating on the CT scan.
Even worse, the doctor poked his major artery  in accident. (procedure location was very hard and close to artery).Even even worse, he does not have enough clot factors.
It means he cannot stop bleeding.

I don't know what happened to this patient after because I was stuck in Angiography.


Maybe I should keep these rare experiences at clinical now on.

Summer Wars

I just watched animation movie called "Summer Wars."

Nowadays, if most people hear somebody who states "I love Japanese anime," they immediately consider this person as an Otaku which is kinda like geek. Animation is for those kinda creepy people or children. But I have to say, Japanese anime includes various contents for children, adults, and people who is otaku. I grow up with animations made by Hayao Miyazaki. He usually describes how people and others (other creatures) live together. When I was little, I didn't get this concept but still watched because the pictures are beautiful, and machine and creatures in these movies are very unusual.

this is from My Neighbour Totoro" Totoro is green guy and my favorite one is cat bus on the left.

This anime shows a good Japanese countryside. My family told me the little girl with twin tails looks and acts just like me lol

This one is about how people and huge bugs can live together but in the movie it's like a war between human and bugs. I think this movie was made in 1984 but still shows current situations. Different thought, race and religion causes war.

Anyway, I wanna come back to the movie, Summer Wars.

tadaaa

Then here is a trailer

I would say I liked this movie more than Avatar. My hands were so wet by my sweat and cried couple time in this movie... So if you think animation is just for children or geeks, please watch this and tell me your thought :)

The first...

Plasma donation

Mmm good volunteer

I just had BBQ and Fondue party in last two days.

BBQ was Japanese style and for my friend's bf back to ... St. something (it's country, now I heard 5times and still can't remember)We went to canyon park in cedar and met professor for my old major.

Next day, I had a fondue party with my nursing classmates. We stayed until midnight and had sooooo much fun :)

I noticed I have different style of friendship depending on Japanese or others. When I can speak Japanese, I can show everything and laugh easily. BBQ day was soooo fun and laughed entire time. Also, I am able to notice a little details how people think in Japanese. Maybe because I know how they feel as Japanese. Somebody starts BBQ and others prepare different things,,, then clean up etc... it is so organized and not only one person do everything.

American friends, it is very hard to laugh together. But this member at fondue party, I always laugh just like with Japanese. These friends are very rare and I really wanted to keep them as friends all the time! They don't judge but care about others but still super funny. During the first couple month in nursing program, I thought I will be alone and never have any friends to hung out. So I am so happy to be involved in this group and can have my opinion.

My bestest friend in Japan just got engaged. We have been friends before we even started walking. We never talk when I am in US but whenever I go home, we always hung out just like when we were kids.

She wants to be a opera/musical (not sure) singer, she is talented and sang solo in play we did in elementary school. Since then, we sang together a lot but never seen her singing on the stage until when I was 20. I went to her high school concert which she sang as an OB. I was shocked and didn't realized how good she was. My tears came out naturally and couldn't stop even I had no idea what she was singing about because it was Italian.

We fought a lot when we were kids. But after all fights, we just accept everything and never fought since... elementary school?? wow!

She is never on time, do everything slower than everybody and rarely gets mad.

I am always on time (used to be haha), do everything as fast as I can and always grumpy.... (well not after I grow up)

She is a cute feminine girl and I was tan boy.

I have no idea why we got this close but we are like twins.

After I got email about engagement from her, we talk a little bit more about ourselves.

We changed a lot but our friendship hasn't changed at all.

She told me she will have her wedding in 1 or 2years. So, hopefully I can attend to her wedding. If I can't, I will hate myself.

I wonder when I can go home next. I really miss my friends and family in Japan.