I just read old blogs which were written three years ago in Japanese.
I was impressed how much I decorated them nicely!
Looking at my blog now, omg, it's so boring ...
Some events flashed back and it made me almost cry
It was mentioned that I wanna be stronger in several blogs
I was frustrated by knowing how weak I was
Those reminded me of the reasons why I came here and stay
I was weaker but had more emotions toward everything I saw or experienced
Now after killing so many emotions for a long time, I became stronger but less emotion or passion
Or maybe I learned how to act stronger.
I still feel worried about everything but try not to think about it
I need to face my problems. I don't know how yet but at least I knew it three years ago
I read through examples of interview questions (in Japan)
"What are good/bad things about you??"
"Do you like yourself?"
kinda haaarrrd!!!
I've never liked myself ... I can list bad things... any good??
I have been avoid from facing myself but I guess I need to start ...
